A Look Over My Shoulder: Sarah's Story
When I told Sarah* that her pregnancy test was positive, she just kept saying over and over, “I can't have a baby. I can't have a baby.” She had some really good reasons for feeling like this was a bad time. Sarah had just started a new job after finishing school. Her mother had a chronic illness. Her boyfriend was present but she wasn't sure about the future… We talked about accepting changes in plans and unexpected blessings. We talked about how much grandparents love their grandchildren. We talked about when life begins and what is the right thing. We talked about trusting God. We also talked about abortion and lifetime regrets. I asked her if she thought abortion was okay and she said, “Not really. But I might do it anyway.” I told her that we have seen over and over in our patients’ lives that those who suffer the most are women who think abortion is wrong — but still make that choice. I hoped she was hearing me because I didn’t want to see her suffer the way others have. I was concerned for her life and for the life of her child. I offered Sarah an ultrasound and she said, “Sure. Why not?” I loved her already. :)
When Sarah saw her baby on the screen, alive and moving, she was mesmerized. We saw her baby's heart beating and when I asked her what she was thinking she simply said,
“I don't know.”
I was quiet, knowing that the ultrasound of her baby was more eloquent than any words that I could speak.
After Sarah left I gathered our staff and volunteers together and we prayed for her and her baby. I also emailed our prayer coordinator and asked that she put out a plea for prayer. Sarah would be listed by initial only to protect her privacy, but God knew her name…and He knew her baby, too. We all committed to be praying for Sarah and her baby.
I called Sarah a week later and, with great trepidation, asked how she was doing. She said she was well. When I asked if she had made a decision about her baby she said, “Oh yea, I'm gonna keep it.” So nonchalant! I complimented her on making a brave and wonderful choice!
During her pregnancy Sarah came in for maternity clothes and prenatal vitamins. She told me that her parents were very excited and very supportive. She said that she and her boyfriend were doing well, also. As her due date got closer we were able to provide her with baby clothes and supplies, too.
Recently, Sarah brought her little one into the center so I could hold him. She said, “I can't believe what I almost did. He’s the best thing that's ever happened to me.”
*Names have been changed to protect our client's privacy.